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I hate when this happens. My parents just got into a huge fight. My mom is now crying in the family room I think, I'm to scared to leave me room and see the mess that just happened and my dad just left to blow off some steam. I guess I get that from him because everytime I get in fight with someone I have to leave. Like on July 3rd I got in a fight with my mom and so I had to run out of my house. I ran to the the shopping center that they just built by my house. You know the one with the new cuban restauraunt The Fork. Well I walked to the side of the building a place which is least traveled because I hate to cry in front of other people. I guess its because I feel its a sign of weakness. Well back to the story all this happened right before we were supposed to leave to church I guess we're not going now and now is when I really need to go to much emotional stress. And great I can hear my mom crying I hate it when she cries. Oh great now she's calling me brb. Ok she managed to dry up her tears and she wanted to ask me if my sister's uniform fits right but her eyes were still red although she had a fake smile on.
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[11 Aug 2006|10:16am] |
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I had absolutely no sleep. So now I have a new technique I'm going to try to stay up all day so when night comes around I would be exausted and fall asleep. Hopefully. Well anyways today is my sister's first day of school. Since I was up and had nothing to do I volunteered to iron my sister's hair. I also did her make-up since she looked like a zombie with huge bags under her eyes. Which I took care of with some cover up. I worked wonders because she came out beautiful because of me I feel so proud. lol. My parents were even shocked to see her. Well today when my mom goes to pick up my sister I'm gonna go with her so after we pick her up she's going to take me to library to check out the book Pride and Prejudice. I really really want to read that book. Maybe afterwards I can get my hair cut.
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| Death Wish |
[11 Aug 2006|03:17am] |
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What is up with me everynight I'm staying up later and later. Last night I stayed up until 9 in the mourning I was going to try to stay up for the rest of the day but I couldn't make it. I fell alseep and ended up waking up at 5 in the after noon. Not good I love sunlight and missing almost a full day of sunlight made me sad. Dude I have a really bad case of insomnia. My sister had a worse sleeping schedule then me and she's starting school tomorrow so what she ended up doing is taking a sleeping pill. Me I never resolve to medication unless its necessary for my health. Oh and also because I can't swallow a pill lol. But whatever not taking medication is actually better for me because I don't wind up with a bunch of chemicals in my body and it gives my own body to take care of any of my illness rather than resorting to medication. And I would have to say my body is pretty strong I've never been to the hospital. I've never broken a bone, none of my organs have broken down or anything. But one things for sure the only time I'm ever planning on taking any pain killers is when I'm giving child birth sorry but I don't think I can go through that pain although I can take pain pretty well but I've heard that that pain is the worst pain anyone can ever endure. So I wanna be knocked out during child-birth oh and also if I ever need to have any kind of surgery which I don't think will happen for a very long time. Ok moving on enough about medication. Tomorrow I'm going to try to convince my mom to take me to the library so I can check out Pride and Prejudice I would really like to read that book. I never saw the movie but the book sounds interesting and if the book is good then maybe I'll rent the movie or maybe even buy it. Oh if I'm going to check out that book then maybe I should finish Gossip Girl. Another book I want to read is Jane Eyre I looked it up on the Miami Dade Public Library website but it turns out that every copy of that book is currently checked out. Which there isn't really that many in the Miami libraries there is only like 7 copies. Now is when the random guys start iming me. I've forgotten whose myspace belonged to which sn but hey it gives me something to do this late at night while all of my friends are sleeping. OMG I just remembered earlier today this guy Tyler (one that I actually remembered the name because he's imed me numerous times already) imed me pretending to be his friend AJ telling me that Tyler got shot by a driveby shooting. I asked him when did he get shot and he answered at 5:50 I asked if it was today and he answered yes and by then I realized he was lieing because he sent me the same im so how could it possible have been today if I got the same im telling me that he got shot yesterday so I figured something was fishy. Ok I must have a death wish because I just agreed to one of the guys that I'm iming now that I would meet him on Saturday. Ofcourse I'm taking friends because I'm not going to meet some guy from myspace by myself thats just plain crazy and also my parents refuse to let me go anywhere by myself or with people they don't know. Now I'm going to try to figure out which myspace belongs to this guy so I can have an idea of what he looks like and what he has to say about himself and what kind of people he's friends with so I can get to somewhat know him. Later.
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| Can't Sleep |
[03 Aug 2006|07:10am] |
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Ugh!!! This is so frustrating this always happens to me when I have so many days of nothing to do. I can't sleep and I hate this since summer camp ended I've been going to sleep later and later and also I've been waking up later and later. So yeah Ana is usually up at this time online but I guess she isn't on tonight so I'm talking to this random guy I don't even know. Yeah myspace brings me random ims from random people I guess I should hide my myspace or take off my sn but then again its fun to talk to random people especially when no one else is awake and your bored out of your mind on aim. Dude I'm addicted to myspace but thats probaly because its my only way of staying connected to all my friends. Aim was good but myspace is better because you never had to worry about forgetting whose sn belonged to who and you can leave people spontaneous comments and messages. Ok wow my life must be so dull that I have to write about my obsession to myspace.
I'm pretty but I'm not beautiful.
I sin but I'm not the devil.
I'm good but I'm not an angel.
-Marilyn Monroe
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| Myspace Weirdness |
[01 Aug 2006|07:05pm] |
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I have bno idea whats going on on myspace but starting last night I've been getting a bucnh of random adds, messages, and ims from these guys I have completely no idea who they are. I find it very weird and creepy like last night alone I got 8 random friend requests. Don't get me wrong I've gotten random adds and messages before but never so much in such a short period of time well anyways moving on. Well today I've had a pretty boring day I just updated my myspace by adding and taking things off. Yay I can't wait til tomorrow because at around 4:00 Elysa and Alex called me and we talked for like 2 hours. We talked about our yearly slumber party which will be tomorrow atleast I'm going to have something to do for the next 2 days. Elysa and Alex got me hooked on America's Next Top Model which there is a marathon on right now on VH1. Wow there is so much drama on that show and its like addicting I was going to take a shower after an epidsode but then I saw previews to the next epidsode and I just had to watch it to see what was gonna happen. Okay change of plans Elysa just called me and we have to change the slumber party for Thursday but whatever its fine. It's kind of better woah where did the day go its already 7:33. Ugh my aim isn't working I'm going to have to restart my computer.
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| CUBA!!!! |
[01 Aug 2006|03:33am] |
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My myspace won't let me log in but whatever. I'm so happy because Fidel Castro gave his power to his brother. This is because he is going to undergo surgery and he is really close to dieing he is going to turn 80 years old next month. But he will not be seen until December 2nd. Thats what I got from the news anyway. Either way Fidel gave his power to his brother which means he will not be ruling anymore and his brother looks stupid and looks drunk and he will never be able to fill in the shoes of Fidel. So yeah I'm happy and I was getting goose bumps as I was watching the news because this is the type thing Cubans have been to happen for a very very long time. Ugh no one is online and I'm bored out of my mind. I really need to do something for the next 2 and half weeks. You know how frustrating it is to think you hvae school next week and find out there is another WHOLE week left of summer vacation. Dude summer camp could've lasted a 3 more weeks and I would've been haveing the time of my life rather then being home. Last night I finished reading the Notebook. Thats a really cute book and it made me cry more then the movie.I gotta do something this week to keep me sane and myspace isn't going to do it.
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[29 Jul 2006|03:00am] |
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Its a Friday night and I actually have nothing to do. This is like the first friday in a veyr long time that I have nothing to do. Well then again its probably because MOST of my friends are on vacation. Ahhh I was supposed to go to Orlando but no we kept postponing it so I don't think we're going any where this summer. I can't go to Disney for awhile because our annual passes expired last Saturday and my parents don't want to re-new it for a while which will be most likely in October or if a hurricane hits lol. We go to Disney World when a hurricane hits because well one thing is because there is no power and its impossible to find food *cough* *cough* lol well its just an excuse just to go more often. Well today I've been reading The Notebook the book is really captivating I just can't put it down. Its different from the movie but its still good. Can't wait til tomorrow me and some of the 3G crew are having a Girls Night out and we're going to man hunt (which is when we go out and search for guys last time we went man hunting it was kind of a failure because we ended up screwing around and shopping but thats the fun.) Ok well I'm going to stop writing now because I'm just writing bull shit.
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[27 Jul 2006|01:18am] |
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Wow I haven't written on LJ in the longest time. Yeah so well I'm going to try to get hooked on this thing again why you may ask. I really don't know so don't ask lol Well anyways I'm super bored and can't sleep its 1:19 in the mourning. The reason I can't sleep is probably because its hot (everytime I go to lower the temperature my parents raise it back up because they want me to melt and they want to torture me) there is also a fly that keeps buzzing in my ear and driving me crazy ahhh I want to kill it but then again I don't yeah I'm weird lol. Ok now I just heard some weird sound outside my window its probably one of my dogs well anyways. I just paused from reading Fahrenheit 451 since its a summer reading book. I have to say its pretty good I didn't expect a summer reading book to be good but then again I was wrong the same way I was wrong about Rebecca. I was confused most of the time but it was a pretty good book it kept me hook most of the time. Oh yeah today I went to Barnes n Noble and bought Cinderella Lopez (a modern day latina cinderella story) and The Notebook I'm looking forward to reading those books but I have to finish reading Fahrenheit 451, The Red Badge of Courage, and The Raven and Other Short Stories (which I still have to find)Ok well I'm going to go and try to lower the air conditioning again and try to go to sleep. Night.
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| This Song is STuck in my head |
[14 Sep 2005|08:07pm] |
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I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
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[10 Sep 2005|01:25pm] |
Wow I haven't updated my journal in the longest time because I get so caught up on myspace lol. Ok well i got braces last Tuesday. They hurt but now I can eat hard food. I'm watching Toon Disney's Movie Weekend I just finished watching Hercules and now Tarzan is playing damn I love Disney movies lol well you can say I love everything Disney. OMG my mom found this picture of me when I was 1 on my 2nd Halloween click on the LJ-Cut to see it I also added it to myspace.
( Little Tinker Bell )
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| No School!!!! |
[24 Aug 2005|05:58pm] |
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YESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is no school tomorrow so that means I don't have to go to detention with Mrs. Dorn. AHHH I hate here she reminds me of Professor Umbridge LMAO not kidding she acts nice like in the beginning of Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix she pretends to be nice and treats us like little kids but then if you get on the bad side of her (which is really easy) she is a bitch to you lol. Yeah I'm weird I compare my life to Harry Potter lmao. I'm so Happy. Ok the only problem is that I have nothing to do tomorrow and its not like I can make plans because there is a Tropical Storm thats almost a Hurricane it even has a name Katrina. So everything will be closed tomorrow I guess I'll just sleep in lol.
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[19 Aug 2005|12:45pm] |
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I'm at school right now I'm supposed to be in lunch but it got boring so me and Melissa snuck into the library. I'm really bored and today we have our first pep rally of the year. I gotta go the bell just rang later.
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[10 Aug 2005|07:36pm] |
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I just got back from taking my Quince pictures it was a very very long day. My mom and me got there at 10:00. This gay guy went to the studio and did my hair and make-up. I look really different now. Well then we took pictures in my big white quinceanera at the studio then me and my mom ate lunch in the little dressing room. Then we had to wait till 3:00 to go to Viscaya. It was really hot especially when you're wearing this huge dress taking pictures after that I changed into a red cocktail dress and took more pictures. Then I changed in the bathroom into this short blue dress and we went to Key Biscayn and took pictures at the beach. It was a very very very long day now I have to go to buy school supplies and do homework because I didn't do it yesterday.
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| Acrylics |
[09 Aug 2005|10:16pm] |
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Ok I got my acrylics but like I said I don't like acrylics because they get in the way I'm having trouble typing now without pressing the wrong letter. I'm stuck with these acrylics for at the least 2 weeks I can't even strach with these nails. Tomorrow I have to take Quinceanera pictures which is going to take all day the bright side is I get to skip school. You know what gives me goosebumps when they file your nails the sound and the feeling gives me major goosebumps its like scratching your nails against a black board (thank God our school had the white boards so no one would be able to make that sound) lol thats just one of my pet peeves that drive me crazy.
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| 2nd Day |
[09 Aug 2005|02:54pm] |
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Today was very confusing because it was activity schedule but I didn't know what activity schedule was because last year we only had 2 lunches. Today during lunch Dani and me snuck into the computer lab which I told her we were going to get in trouble if a teacher caught is in there by ourselves then Mr. Couto walked in (which it turns out he is the new computer teacher) walked in and asked what we were doing there and ofcourse Dani being the little flirt. flirted us out of getting in trouble. well I have to go soon to get acrylics for my Quinceanera pictures which I will get to skip school. (I hate acylics they get in the way) now I'm going to be stuck with them for another 2 weeks.nd
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| First Day of School |
[08 Aug 2005|03:26pm] |
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Today was my first day of school when I got there all Sophomores, Juniors, and Seniors were sent to the gym when I got there I started talking to all my friends it was fun to see them all again we had lots of fun. Then they sent us to our homerooms but since I left my schedule at home and didn't know it I went to the front of the gym with Alex, Gaby, Louferz, Prissy, and Betsy. Prissy and me had the same homeroom and there are alot of new people this year alot. Unfortunately my homeroom teacher is Mrs. Dorn (the Jewish lady) she is very strict and she made us sit in alphabetical order. I have some good teachers this year but I also have teachers that could be the biggest bitches but whats new. I tried to change my schedule after school because I want ot have first period lunch instead of last. But they didn't let me change so I'm going to get my parents to change it because Alex was able to change it when her mom complained and so did alot of people so I guess thats the best way to do it.
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[08 Aug 2005|12:57am] |
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School starts tomorrow and I can't sleep. This whole summer I've been going to sleep late and I mean really late like at 6 in the mourning. I'm trying to go to sleep early but I just can't I'm wide a awake. Maybe I should stop watching Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets on the Disney channel (the best combination lmao Harry Potter and Disney put together a dream come true)ok well I'm going to stop typing and try to go to sleep before its 3 in the mourning and I'm still on the computer. later guys.
p.s. I can't sleep
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[08 Aug 2005|12:43am] |
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Ok yesterday I got this weird message on my cell phone but today is when I actually heard it and it was this guy Mark Richardson from Tri-Star Productions. I have no idea what that is so if you have any clue please tell me. I looked it up but found nothing.
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[05 Aug 2005|01:21am] |
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Ok wow Its been a long time since I've been writing here and I miss it I remember writing everything done on how I felt to what I did that day. Ok well now that school is starting on Monday I'm going to write more on a daily basis before myspace became so addicting. School starts in 3 days and I can't wait. I want to see all my friends again. catch up with everyone. This summer was fun but not as fun as other summers when I had summer camp to go to but next year I'm going to work there. I just couldn't work there this year because I of the cruise which was a very fun week. I am currently stressing changing my schedule I hope they let me because I can't stand to have no classes with any of my friends. Ok well I have nothing else to say I'll write more later.
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[22 Jul 2005|04:48am] |
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Ok if you don't want to read any spoilers of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood prince then you should stop reading now I know this sounds like a Series of Unfortunate events type statement but its true I need to write about it and if you've read the book I want to talk to you about it. ok you should really stop reading now if you don't wanna read any spoilers. First off Snape is the Half-Blood prince and he also betrayed Dumbledore I can't believe he killed Dumbledore. How could Dumbledore's trust be so wrong when he is usually right about everything. I can't believe Harry isn't going to go back to Hogwarts next year he is going to spend the next year his 7th year hunting down Voldemort and destroying his 5 last Horcruxes and who is R.A.B. I'm going to look up every wizard in the HP Lexicon that could have the initials R.A.B.
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